I ask myself this question to help understand why I’m writing this blog and putting my character stories and ideas out for the world to see. I believe that the “why” is the most important part of understanding anything that someone does.

 

As a child, I was very imaginative. Very early in life, around 5 or 6, I was writing stories on a Commodore64 and playing in my brother’s dungeons and dragons games. Like any child, the stories were short and basic, but I was proud of them. For my favorite, I even made a cover sheet and drew art world and stapled it like a mini-book.

 

By late elementary school and middle school, I was still writing. Some was poetry and others were stories. I even began writing a story based off of some of the D&D characters we had which ended up being 50 or so pages in tiny handwritten print. In the margins, I’d calculated all of the words that I’d written and it was several thousand. More than most middle schoolers would dream of writing.

 

However, as a daydreamer, which I was and will always be, I have a love and a need to express these dreams and ideas and I chose to write. It is my love and joy. RP was a way to be actively involved in making stories. With more interaction, it was fun to see the character develop and react in ways that you might have never thought to write. It provided a challenge outside of my own mind.

 

It was natural.

 

I suppose if I’d been included, the idea of living my own stories could have led me to acting. I am shy and it was not to be though. However, I have plenty embarrassing stories of me attempting to be creative at some public event and it backfiring. Word of warning to any middle or high schoolers out there, if you’re thinking about reading poetry for your talent contest… avoid it unless you have a really awesome idea. *groans* Learn what your peers have a tolerance for.

 

Years continued and I never gave up writing or playing D&D and it has led me to where I am today. I started playing WoW a few years ago with some friends. One of them set up a meeting with someone else and I listened to his RP concept and his story. What he wanted in this world that I’d just entered. I was charmed.

 

The RP grabbed me and I couldn’t let go. It’s difficult for me even today to just grab someone and start RPing due to shyness that seems to exist even when people can’t see me, but I try. Why? Why go out and look for something if it’s difficult? If you have a bad experience? If you don’t know what to do? Because I love it. I learn through every experience I have and each time becomes a little easier, but the key is… because I love it.

 

I love the story.

 

And most of all, I love being a part of an ever changing story that I have a role in and can change. RP is all of that and more to me. Thank you for listening to this ramble, but I hope that it helps you understand me more and maybe it raises some questions for yourself.

 

Thank you and enjoy the rest of my page!

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