I’m not a hard core raider, and I know that doesn’t surprise anyone who reads my blogs. However, I do run Heroic 5 mans and raid. That means that I understand what it takes to make it through fights. However, a number cruncher I’m not.
1) Skill
Skill is something you only get from experience. Sometimes it’s just a certain fight or with your class and abilities. I dual spec and I know that there are times that I’m not using my abilities to their utmost. I would love to say that I react perfectly every time, but I’m only human. You know that Desperate Prayer button. It sits under my left ring finger for fight after fight and guess what? When I actually need it, I still forget to press it. I’m constantly working to improve myself and my skill to use more and more of my abilities to their fullest.
2) Spec
I’m dual spec. One’s Holy and the other is Disc. Again, I’m pretty sure they’re not perfect and when I get a moment, I’ll research and update them. It happens, especially when they update talents and suddenly one talent is more useful than another. Again, this is something as a player I work on.
I know there are several people who have asked me why I dual spec’ed healing if I’m not always raiding. First, if I want to DPS… I’ll hop on my mage. It’s much more satisfying for me. *grins* Second, I find that certain fights can require a different style of healing. I’m particularly attached to Disc, but I find Holy can be very useful when I lot of people are taking damage.
3) Gear
No matter my skill. No matter if I have the latest uber spec. There are times when my gear is just not up to snuff for the job. And I have thrown myself at that wall desperately to try and get my group through a fight… and sometimes I scrape by through luck. Luck, is just that, luck. You want to be able to make it through a fight consistently through hard work, not just luck.
I recognize that. I have accepted that. Last week, I struggled with some of the Heroic ICC 5 mans. I failed at 10 man TOC. So, I looked at my slightly better than Naxx gear and said, “You aren’t doing it for me anymore.” I took a serious step back and realized that if I really wanted to main heal for my tank, then I needed to up my gear to be able to handle what was dished out to him.
I still have more upgrades to go, but after a week of gearing up through our local PUG finder and hitting certain heroics for upgrades, I’m starting to not dread the Heroic ICC 5 mans. I’ve worked hard to get my reputations up and I can now get great helm and shoulder enchants. I’m starting to look forward to seeing what I can do in 10 man TOC.
I’m not confident. After all, you succeed or fail as a team. I know now that I’m doing my best for my group. I can make flasks for them. I can drop down a fish feast. I can give out enchants through my alt for those who need them. I’m doing my best to give my group the best chance we have… and if we do well, maybe we can start looking at doing the 10 man ICC. So, here’s to hoping.
Good luck to all you casual raiders out there that have similar goals!