Alone, but Not Alone
Monday, February 15th, 2010The young redhead bounded through the woods near the Site of Lessons. Too much was happening, and it was much more than she’d expected. She’d been a fool. Slipping into a tree hollow, Araatris sat in the small space and drew her knees up. Right now, she didn’t want to be found. Gently, she laid her forehead against her knees and wrapped her arms about her legs.
“You are human.
You are young.
Is not everything annoying?”
The words had struck more home than she had time to realize when he said that. Tharion was right. But it wasn’t fair, just because he was a night elf and older shouldn’t mean that it was easier for him. Her hands clenched until the knuckles were white. It hurt… reality hurt. Her shoulders shook, but she knew tears would be denied to her. Araatris had made her choice and the pressure of the blindfold and burning in her eyes was a constant reminder.
“I hate you…,” Apparently, she wasn’t denied a stuffy nose as she sniffled.
“No…” The demonic presence in her mind shifted slipped into her thoughts.
Araatris’ head snapped up. In her horrid embarrassment and melancholy, she’d forgotten about him. She berated herself, but didn’t directly respond to the demon.
“You don’t hate him.” The voice sounded disinterested.
“Yes, I do. It’s his fault!” There was a scurry of creatures as she shouted out to the forest.
“I know you. You don’t hate him.” If a voice could shrug, then that’s what the presence did.
Araatris frowned. It was messing with her again. “What? Because he’s -pretty-?” She tried to glare inside her mind.
“Perhaps, but mostly because you know he never made you do this. If it’s anyone’s fault… it’s yours.” The voice was horridly blunt.
“It’s… It’s… not my fault.” Her shoulders began to shake again.
“Do you want to die?” The voice was sharp, and very intense.
Araatris found a similarity in Tharion’s question when she said that it was easier to not speak with the demon manipulating her thoughts. He’d asked, “Will you be mute?” She wasn’t ready to give up, but it hurt. She sniffled again. “N-no.”
Malorin was silent for several moments. “You aren’t sure.” It was not a question.
The thought made Araatris’ heart skip. Was she really unsure about living? The thought terrified her. She trembled. “I’m… I’m sure.”
“Then why do you hide?” Malorin’s voice had relaxed into a mild disinterest again.
“I’m not…” Araatris paused. “I don’t know…” She glowered. “Why are you being nice?”
“I’m not. I’m simply protecting myself.” He growled, “Without you I no longer exist.”
Ah. So there had been an ulterior motive. “So, you’re lying?”
Malorin huffed, “What good would that do, brat? Then, for all I know you’d just get depressed and commit suicide.”
“So, you don’t know me as well as you think you do.” Araatris grinned slightly through the sniffles.
Malorin grumbled, “I know you as well as you know yourself, which isn’t very good. In your current state, you’re worthless. If you don’t know yourself, then you will never be able to master me. Not that I think you’re capable anyway.”
Araatris stared out of the tree hollow. “Maybe you’re right… maybe you’re wrong. If you have access to me, then I should have access to you. Argh! But he said that there was no you and me… this hurts my head.” She shifted and pressed her fingers into her forehead.
He shrugged, “Not my problem. Anyway, how long are you going to sit here and cry, brat? You’re starting to annoy me.”
She twitched, “Good. Now you know how I feel.”
“And stop talking out loud. You echo enough in this empty place without it.” Malorin grinned amused.
“Shut up!” Araatris fumed.
A deep laughter echoed throughout her mind, “That’s it, brat. Fight!”
Araatris paused and slipped out into the rain from the crevice. “You know what, Malorin… I think I will.” Taking off across the damp grass, Araatris’ feet lead her to the satyr village. Malorin’s malicious laughter echoed through her mind in response.